2 weeks and 5 years

Its amazing how much someone can grow in the matter of 5 years. 5 years really isn’t a long time. Its actually just a blink of the eye. 5 Years ago I was with a girl who I KNEW was the one. I was so ready to propose to her. Her family loved me and I loved them. She was far from a girl who was right in Gods eyes. I knew I could change her though. So that didn’t stop me. I even got her to come to church every Sunday and Wednesday night. 

 

 I was involved with the teen group then. I really wasn’t a great leader however. For the most part I didn’t allow her to come into the teen group. She wasn’t a good example. But I did get her to do a skit with myself and our friend Doreen. 

 

 I knew she was coming along. I “caught” her reading the Bible. But she still didn’t accept Jesus. I knew deep down that this wasn’t right. Then in August Mike and Rachel came back up from Virginia. I remember Mike and I going to the Home Depot in Glastonbury to pick up the tiles for LP. I remember him saying “Do you know the verse about being equally yolked.” 

 

 I knew the verse. I didn’t care though. I loved Amanda with everything i had. And she even came and helped pull up the carpet when I wasn’t there. I had to work. I knew she would come around. But then again I knew if she hadn’t already she wasn’t going to.

 

 A month later Amanda,Doreen, and myself went out to a bar for Amanda’s birthday. I really didn’t want to go but I did for her sake. The next day I told Amanda I wouldn’t go anymore. It just wasn’t my thing. A week later Amanda and Doreen went out to the bar again and I didn’t go. The next day Amanda broke up with me. I was heartbroken. And it took me a LONG time to get over her. 

 

 I gave her my all. EVERYTHING. And it was all pushed aside. Over the course of the next year I made some big mistakes.  I was a leader in LP, but I wasn’t really a leader. If that even makes sense. I loved being a part of it, but I didn’t give my all for a while.

 

  But this was the turning point of my life. We tore down the old sound booth and put me in the middle of the room. And we shot the infamous Sports Instructional Videos. Thats when I started to really give my all and start to connect. Its also when I started to actually be over Amanda(took probably 2 years).

 

 LP has meant so much to me. It changed me. It changed my view on a lot of things. And it taught me a lot. And now in 2 weeks LP is done. For me anyways. And also I will be taking a huge step and leaving Fellowship. That is hard, VERY hard. There have been so many memories over the years. 

 

 But change is good. I know that May 29th is going to be tearful. A chapter in my life will be over. And I am going to miss being a part of the teens. I don’t want that night to come, yet can’t wait.  Again if that makes sense. Its something I am struggling with. Tonight I looked back into LP. All the lights were off and we were waiting for the last few to go home. Mike asked “Who do you think will be the last one to leave LP?” That is when the 2 weeks hit me. 

 

 I love everyone in LP. And I am going to miss all of you that I won’t see again. I love you guys. Be good and enjoy the time and make the most of what we have left.

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